“Do you know I’ve been sitting here thinking to myself that if I didn’t believe in life, if I lost faith in the woman I love, lost faith in order of things, were convinced, in fact, that everything is a disorderly, damnable, and perhaps devil-ridden chaos, if I were struck by every horror of man’s disillusionment— still I should want to live and, having once tasted of the cup, I would not turn away from it till I had drained it.”—The Brother’s Karamazov- Dostoevksy
“The stupider one is the closer one is to reality. The stupider one is, the clearer one is. Stupidity is brief and artless, while intelligence wriggles and hides itself. Intelligence is a knave, but stupidity is honest and straightforward.”—The Brothers Karamazov- Dostoevsky
i know i’ll probably sound outdated or lame, but for the life of me, i really cannot understand why people don’t use AIM anymore. really?! facebook chat?! there’s no way to leave passive-aggressive away messages on facebook.
“sooo yesterday, i was at a class at my church, and my boyfriend was supposed to drive over and meet me for the service. well, at the end of class he’s like “oooh yeah… i can’t make it” and i just sat there like, “fuck.” because i surprisingly don’t know anybody in my congregation because i’m so cool and antisocial and just the thought of all these people i don’t know and hanging out with them and singing and stuff, i just couldn’t do it. so i tried to sneak back to my car, but little did i know, i parked next to this guy who was in my class who goes to the 8 30 service. and he just gave me this odd look. i just lied and said i had to go to work, but seriously i got in the car like lol, pathetic. oh dearie.”—
“This is what knowledge really is, it is finding out something for oneself with pain, with joy, with exultancy, with labor, and with all the little ticking, breathing moments of our lives, until it is ours as that only is ours which is rooted in the structure of our lives. Knowledge is a potent and subtle distillation of experience, a rare liquor, and it belongs to the person who has the power to see, think, feel, taste, smell, and observe for himself, and who has hunger for it.”—
Thomas Wolfe - The Web and the Rock
You can read all the books in the world, but what is it versus going out and DOING? Broaden your horizons.
“All the grandeur and the misery; the high aspiration and the base desire; the noble work and the ignoble strivings for mean ends; the terror, violence, and brute corruption, and the innocence, the hope, the dreaming, and the loveliness; the huge accomplishment and a constant raw, unfinished of things still doing, never ended, getting done— all of it was here, and so to her the city was America.”—Thomas Wolfe - The Web and the Rock
“The world is a better place than I thought it was— for all its spots and smudges— for all its ugliness, drabness, cruelty, terror, evil— a far, far better and more shining place! And life is fuller, richer, deeper— with all its dark and tenement slums— than the empty image of a school boy’s dream.”—
Thomas Wolfe - The Web and the Rock
I feel like everyone should tape this to their damn mirrors in the morning, before they begin all their daily gripings, before they spend the afternoon with their noses in the cell phones, before they put in headphones in order to ignore the world… Why not just enjoy it?
“There is a moment when our prayers are heard, there is a moment when our lives may meet, there is a moment when our wandering might end and all our hunger be appeased and we could walk into love’s heart and core forever.”—Thomas Wolfe - The Web and the Rock
“This finally was the memory that was to fix that corner, the house, the day, the time, the words and faces of the people, with a feeling of the huge and nameless death that waits around the corner for all men, to break their backs and shatter instantly the blind and pitiful illusions of their hope.”—Thomas Wolfe- The Web and the Rock
“For the place where he lived was not just a street to him— not just a strip of pavement and a design of weathered, shabby houses. It was the living integument of his life, the frame and stage for the whole world of childhood and enchantment.”—
so every time i see all these pictures of girls in like, fancy clothes, with their fancy make up on and looking bored, i just wonder….are you really going out and just taking a quick picture? or do you really just fucking get made up to take pictures and put them all over the internet? because the more i see pictures of this on tumblr, the more i think it’s the latter. and really, instead of taking pictures of yourself looking like you’re not trying to take pictures of yourself, shouldn’t you be pre-gaming? because obviously if you’re dressed like that you’re going to have a big night out.
Question to Consider: How should the fact that life on earth is just a temporary assignment change the way I am living right now?
I’ve always felt like this is a tricky concept to deal with. I remember my freshman year of college, in a Life Science class, our teacher had us watch An Inconvenient Truth. At the end of the movie, she asked for any questions or comments and one girl raised her hand and said, “If this life is temporary and we will be in Heaven for eternity, why does it matter what we do here?”
It was a pretty big WTF moment for me and the whole class because it seemed like a really stupid thing to say.
I’ve never forgotten it and I have to say, I would probably do the opposite. I feel like the earth is a gift given to us from God. Although technically life here is a separation from God and there is agony, sadness, and loneliness, God put all these beautiful things on this planet to make it a little more enjoyable.
Have you ever gotten a gift— say a piece of clothing or jewelry, or even a book— and you never used it? Then years later, you stumble upon it and can’t live without it? It becomes your wardrobe staple, or your favorite story. During my time on earth, I’d love to find all the little hidden secrets that God put on this earth to make His people happy, to make us humble, to stand in awe of what the can do.
That’s probably not the kind of answer that Rick Warren had in mind, but what can I say? It’s just been running through my mind.
Questions? Comments? What would you do differently?
Somewhere along the line I got my days mixed up and must have mislabeled one. Oh well!
Question to consider: What has happened to me recently that I now realize was a test from God? What are the greatest matters God has entrusted to me?
My whole college experience was so far the hardest thing I have ever done in my entire life. I’m sure there are plenty of people who would read that and scoff, but I just felt like I was juggling so many aspects of my life and sometimes it seemed so hard to keep it all together.
I have total control of my finances and it’s been that way since I left my house. At one point I was working three jobs (one was right on the cusp of being full-time…the only reason the owner didn’t give me those three extra hours is so they wouldn’t have to pay for any benefits. LAME!) going to school full-time, I had 50 practicum hours to complete, as well as the fact that this was when I had my first apartment and had a lot more maintenance to do around where I was living. I legitimately didn’t have time to breathe.
The hardest part of all of that was that no matter how hard I tried I wasn’t ENOUGH for those around me. My friends slowly started fading away because they were pissed that I never had time to hang out or go to parties or whatever, there was a lot of strained relations between my boyfriend and I because we never spent time together, people in my classes HATED working with me because I was never available to work on school stuff with them, my teachers weren’t fond of me because I was always turning in things late… It seemed like I ran myself ragged for absolutely no reason.
Since I was a kid I knew I wanted to teach, and (unfortunately) I can’t teach without a college degree. God pulled me through all the hardships…somehow he gave me miracle after financial miracle so that I could keep paying for school, kept me sane enough to decide to do another year, and kept the most important people around.
At the time, I was so miserable, but looking back I see it cut a lot of the fat away from my life. I saw the things that I absolutely needed in life versus just things I wanted. I saw the people who genuinely cared about me (and would hang out with me whenever they could) versus the people who just wanted to party with me. I saw what I actually enjoyed spending my free time doing versus things I would do to just pass the time.
I do feel that working with kids is the biggest trust that God has given me. Because everywhere I have worked or applied has very secularized teaching, I’m not allowed to do Sunday school-esque type lessons, so I try to teach character by modeling it for my kids. It’s definitely a tough path to follow… sometimes you just want to kick back and not give things your all, or be rude to somebody, but I know I have all these little eyes looking to me to see how they should act, and I’ve never wanted to be in a situation where it’s “do as I say, not as I do.”
“And something had come into life—into their lives— that they had never known about before. It was a kind of shadow, a poisonous blackness filled with bewildered loathing. The snow would go, they know; the reeking vapors of the sky would clear away. The leaf, the blade, the bud, the bird, then April would come back again— and all of this would be as if it had never been. The homely light of day would shine again familiarly, and all of this would vanish as an evil dream, and yet not wholly so, for they would still remember the old dark doubt and loathing of their kind, of something hateful and unspeakable in the souls of men. They knew that they would not forget.”—Thomas Wolfe- The Web and the Rock
“The city flashed before him like a glorious jewel, blazing with countless rich and brilliant facets of a life so good, so bountiful, so strangely and constantly beautiful and interesting, that it seemed intolerable that he should miss a moment of it.”—Thomas Wolfe- The Web and the Rock